Happy sticks.

2010-05-03T22:36:00.001+08:00

RELINK.
fatsarefromstress
RELINK RELINK RELINK,
(if anyone even reaad this,haha)

2010-04-26T21:11:00.001+08:00

i never expect life can get so complicated. if only its as simple as abc,which's impossible. nt gng blog here anymore due to some reasons . changed blog

xx

2010-04-25T02:00:00.004+08:00

really wished time could turn back to here, when everything was good. when i was such a mad woman that noone wnts to come near me except for all the girlfriends i 've ,when i've never found out any truth behind those lies, when i was just such a happy girl with noone i held close to my heart,when i was really happy with life .

2010-04-23T22:22:00.006+08:00

tdy go school for nothing, no lessons other then chem but chem also didn do anything so yah. aft school decided to nt go for the booster since it isn helping so went home instead. took a short nap, headed to sengkang meet nix,hw they all. came home arnd 10.

last day ,bye. maybe,forever.

好不习惯于你的冷漠沟通。。
突然记得你能知道我想什么。。。对不起，亏待了你。

2010-04-22T18:37:00.005+08:00

people make regrets in their life and some unfortunately can never be undone but whatever it is,future is what matters. heard tht this sat got some family day. bestfr ask me to go,so might be gng ^^. i luvv my bestfr. know her since p1 and we've never quarrelled before,miracle? so therefore in our memories,there're only good memories,nothing bad at all. if only every friendship i've is like this. sigh. headed to ikea with valen aft school as i was craving for daim cake while she was craving for the chocolate candy. ning was suppose to come but she had to stayback and do her hw,paiikia. oh,lyn came to school tdy agn finally. Lyn is me and ning's tao.the cut on my leg nt gng away yet ): sigh,why will it bleed suddenly seriously,creepy shit. oh,tell u secret. me and daniel luv m&m ^^ haha. we were talking abt it as though it was some heavenly food. i shall strt studying soon, must nt sleep.

1day.

再也没有我想要的东西了。。。
喂。。。你们俩可以不要这样了吗.

2010-04-21T21:13:00.003+08:00

how shit can my fringe get, ): i wnt nice hair ley. wl wl wl wl. studies is killing me, i seriously cant get them in . stress stress stress. but i guess its the only way that will stop me from thinking,stop my hallucination. wakeup ,its reality. sigh,chem and maths is killing me. why so difficult ): i seriously need help! vexed

2days

想念却无法说。。。

2010-04-20T22:25:00.008+08:00

i think my hair looks nice here ,but i look naked D: wtf.

i miss my old fringe,): now so shit

i cant go on like this,i've to get out of this and just start cracking on things which will lead me somewhere. studied just now,gng continue agn. im nt gng to be tired. what n said was right,' don't depend on anyone but yourself ' there's nothing called forever,everything comes to an end. noone truly cares. be strong,be brave. you know you're nt so weak felicia. tell yourself,you're a diamond. diamonds are strong,nothing breaks them. even if im tired,i've to move on.

" beautiful things are only meant to be admired "
and,everything is beautiful,except. me.

2010-04-20T18:56:00.005+08:00

tdy was definately not a good day,again. morning dunno why my leg was bleeding with cuts. but thankfully its okay. then after that wasnt feeling well,was feeling dizzy and all like gng to faint so took a rest at the sickbay. and stomach still giving me problems.. sigh. but anyway i cleared my 2.4 run! hoho. kay this means i 've cleared my napfa since i 've cleared my 5stations too. heng,if nt must still retake like dunno how many countless times and that would only be more tiring.

3 days

今天有一位阿姨在学校看见我的名字时，问我：‘知道你的名字是什么意思吗？’我：‘知道。开心。’。。。我的名字虽然代表了开心，可是。。一点也不开心，反而觉得好孤独。难道开心就是孤独吗？不可能的。神啊。。。你就放了我吧。好累。。。好累。。

很想念那些回忆，

2010-04-19T15:44:00.006+08:00

i've never realised how important you're but i know realising it myself its of no use,nothing can be done. besides,it takes two hands to clap. i shall just bury myself in my books since exams are coming soon. sorry that i've caused you all to worry. im fine ,im really fine. like what i told ning long time ago,' i'll never get close to anyone anymore' thats what i should keep practising cause once i stop,only bad things happened. felicia,you've enough examples already. you've hurt enough people you know. books,you're the only one i cant hurt.

shoulder problem is back again ): it hurts really damn badly,cant even stand properly cause of it,argh. one word,sucks . and also keep having gastic agn ): sigh,i really need to learn to take care of myself i guess,cause noone else would.

i'll be okay . i'll be okay. i'll be okay. i'll be okay. i'll be okay. okay,im not okay . but what can i do. noone cares, its kind of obvious here. felicia get real.

4 days

真得很想和你说。。。。。。。。。嗨，还是算了吧。后悔也来不及，就只能不要再犯同样的错了吧。第一步，离开。

2010-04-18T08:12:00.010+08:00

i only bring people unhappiness,don you have enough examples felicia?
nothing else but jinx.H8 myself,seriously.
right now,i feel like im an empty bottle.
5 more days,i'll end and say bye.

讨厌人之间的察隅。看到你这么的辛苦，我，心也都碎了。你能不要一之看不起自己吗？好担心。好希望能现在在你的身边，可是我看你应该不想见到我吧。。。。

很讨厌失去的感觉。。。。

2010-04-17T21:25:00.007+08:00

life is a cycle. tdy you're happy and tml you'll nt be happy anymore. suppose to meet up with b tdy but he donwant so never. walked arnd lots of places. maybe gng out alone isnt that bad afterall ^^ but my shoulder almost died cause my bag was super super super heavy. see,thats why i really hate carying bags out. somhow or rather im starting to love the loner life somehow ; as in gng out yourself. yes im getting mad. hah.

一生的产亏，不代表就这样完了。。。。烦恼不是睡觉和逃避就能解决的。是需要世纪的行动，你不是孤独的。你还有我。。。

2010-04-16T23:47:00.003+08:00

tdy is a travelling day ,like seriously. met up with zining at bishan arnd 650. went arnd j8 like anrd 9times?! oh and we met wenyan in the arcade. as usual...haha. anyway then we headed to sengkang. i swear that place is like some ulu pandan shit! and we could actually got lost at there. for like 1h haha then in the end took cab to rivervale mall to meet nix and hwei. its been like 4months since i met them ): and only spend like a short 2hours tgt. somehow,it felt really comfortable being them.idk why. maybe cause nix was the one who had been there for me all along then and hwei is one who never fail to make me laugh everytime. this two people can never be replced. but no matter what it is,thank god for all these people who has always been there for me ,who never fail to be my happypill. nt just two of them but alot more.

寂寞早已变成了习惯。。也许我命中注定一个人吧。哈哈。。。。
不相符合，不适应为没有了爱。只是号帕再次失去你。就是呢么简单。对不起，请原谅我的胆小行为。

2010-04-15T22:45:00.001+08:00

Sigh, im growing fatter and fatter ): soon enough i gng to become the world's fatty mama or smth close to that. sigh, i have to stop my mouth and cravings seriously.

everytime i say i won't talk to you,you'll appear.

2010-04-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

Felicia,you're nt suppose to be sad okay. oh tdy the stupid pole was being a bitch . i swear that she's very rude. oh so is the lorry. anyway headed to macs with ning tdy. we managed to buy like 2waffle cones after 5people sponsered. HAHAH,thanks luvvvv you guys for sponseringgg ^^

2010-04-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

i've decided. im gng to be a happy blogger. hahaha,idk why but i decided so but i guess its a sure fail plan. anyway you know what. i like salonpas ^^ i likey how it is hot when u stick it and the smell of it. no,im not a psycho.

sorry that i keep on ignoring you. im nt a good friend ):
you deserve a better friend. bye

2010-04-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

felicia = failure.

2010-04-12T20:50:00.001+08:00

went to sch,one word -sian. totally screwed up my maths paper,sigh nt enuogh time lah seriously why was the paper so tough ): aft school headed home,took a nap for 5hrs. somehow,tend to sleep longer these days,it makes me feels better. i guess.

你好残忍。

2010-04-11T21:17:00.002+08:00

Had churched, lunched @blk 3 and headed back to church for a short practice. Aft which headed to classroom,did alittle bit of revision and studying with daniel. kenneth joined us later but only to cause disruption ): aft that headed home. bought food on the way home,hiakhiakhiak^^

等待。。。还有多久呢。可是。我们是不可能的吧。

2010-04-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

late morning was still snuggling in my bed until alex text me saying 'hey long time never disturb you' thats when i couldn sleep anymore,sigh. anyway after that i decided to watch pokemon,haha yes plain randomness. then arnd 12.45 jill suddenly rang me up asking me to go joshua's concert, changed and headed off immediately since if i don go she has to go herself,i was just being nice.hoho. anyway joshua's concert was good other then the last song which i didn really like,esp that two horrible soloist. headed to xinwang cafe and had our lunch. then we went to city link and i shopped for markers ^^ i bought it for a total of $12. yes i spend alot of money on these nonsense shit. anyway continued to walk arnd raffles place and bought food hohoo. yes right aft our lunch. then walk arnd and headed home.

好开心能和你聊天。今天，是第二天了。这就已让我满祝了。。。^^

2010-04-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

lost my phone in the morning but i managed to get it back by afternoon? haha. plain luck. chem step was really good. i managed to learn alot,and i starting to nt h8 chemistry so much. maths is still a problematic subject but i like mdm low,she's nice so i shall not give up :) maths and poa tests next week,i shall mug hard this week as mye is coming. sigh.

for the first time,you talked to me and then i suddenly recalled the deal i made with god abt the one week thing. so,is this really what you called fate?

觉得好孤独啊。。。。有人在吗？

2010-04-08T23:09:00.001+08:00

people walk in and out of your life. noone stays. those who stays may be there physically,not mentally.

2010-04-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

went for school's band concert. limelight. i have to really comment that its awesome. the songs were really great and i had a good time too. :) this is the best i've ever attended since hwachong's. anyway aft the band concert,bought cupnoodles,hanged out a little and headed home.

如果能忘记一个人，哪。。就是你。虽然带给了我幸福与欢乐，可是。却让我感到好辛苦，好难受。。。。

2010-04-06T22:31:00.002+08:00

school was great, first there wasnt pe and there wasnt chem ,maths and poa ! woo. anyway,the sky tdy is really nice,the colour and the brightness. yes i like it bright hehhh^^ oh,and yeeki's muffin is like heaven i swear

想念，思念。。可却无法和你说。

2010-04-03T23:35:00.006+08:00

Happy Easter 2010! CHRIST HAS RISEN,AGAIN :) anyway church was awesome. thank god for all you've done without you,there wouldn't be me and my friends and family. noone's love can ever replace yours! anyway morning met daniel,went out for shopping :> he shopped for his crumpler while i shopped for my new school shoes and waterbottle. ate carls jnr too. then i went to meet boy while he went for mindchamps. kenneth and i headed for sakae to eat (yes i had two lunch in a row.haha) then we headed of to church! had practice and mass started. and somehow jojo almost set the church in fire,haha. the paper covering her candle caught fire. laughed like mad at her,silly bird. after mass ended,headed to yassin and ate my prata.

看到你时，好想好想和你一起拍个照片，打招呼。可是却没有哪个勇气。每次看到你，就失去了力量。。。
希望你能有一天，主动地和我说几句。好奇盼啊。。。。

2010-04-03T11:31:00.004+08:00

bryan say this photo dont look like me, so i shall post it up.

hi,i luv books.

btw, i cut my fringe recently. not v recent though

2010-04-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

back from the 'stayover' session. it was rather crap since i only managed to slept 2hours after the long talks and prayers. it was a good thing i slept bfr the stations though,:)heng me and boo smart enough,hid beside daniel and slept,LOL. went for itchiban dinner before that,then emm reflection. had to eat stupid bittergourd~!D:?! ate two bite then pass to kenneth,thanks boyyyy :) after that was the stayover thingggg. this morning woke up due to a aunty talking and boo woke up . went to macs arnd 5am ,drank a warm cup of milo :) aft that headed to sports complex to bathe since the church toilet is shittty ,I likey the sports complex's toilet. anyway, we then headed for practice for goodfriday. practice was pretty fine. i managed to reach notes!!! aft mass,headed for lunch and then homed.

yes,i altered the post timing,haha. now its 3.39am of 3rdapril.

bb,i know you just quarrelled agn with her,hope you're fine.

如果不是我的出现，你可能还是像以前呢么得开心。都是我的错。后悔是没用的，所以，我回想竟办法，让你能再次的小。吴有条件的帮助，因为就是你的笑容，带给了我承竟的拥有与幸福。

2010-03-31T23:32:00.003+08:00

shoulders muscles are stiften, could barely stand straight so decided to give school a miss. went to some massage shop in the afternoon. it was really painful but at the same time it felt really good! :D slept almost for the entire day tdy. hopefully i will be awake throughout for tml,tml is gng to be a long day.

看到你这样，好想去关心你，可是在仔细想想，你沉静为我照相过吗？

2010-03-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

tiring day, thursday will be one tiring day too. sch,mathstest,step(remedial for maths) then went home bathe,met up with the rest went for augustine's concert.( stgab's concert) it was pretty fine. i like the saxophone medley part, the joshua solo part too :) i think joshua's voice is so much better then the two soloist for imyours. seriously,they suck. anyway, overall the concert was pretty fine,other then the guitar esemble which was just plain boring. had a good laugh at stupid things tdy too. after the concert,headed to cityhall for a quick grab and then rushed home.

你知道你以前对待我和现在的你，是差多远吗？以前的你，不管什么都让我，呵护着我。每次当我伤心你就会全新权利的斗我开心，一次次得让我感动。可是现在的你，只会骂我，不惯我，不在乎我。真的真的好想念以前的你。。。。

2010-03-29T21:29:00.002+08:00

school was rather tiring or maybe it was just me. heh sorry im a piggggg. anyway the test tdy was pretty managable. but im pretty sure tml's one will be a disaster,cause . its maths.

you always say you know,what exactly you know
you don know anything,stop lying
你知道吗，你好产人啊。一次次地把我丢弃。我就是一个没有重要性的人吗？

2010-03-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

sat :
went to watch ' how to train a dragon' its pretty good. a movie definately worth to watch. i like toothless,he's really cute. aft movie,headed to church. met up with kenneth and jill and maria. then we headed to tpy for dinner. after which me and boo went to study while they go their concert.

tdy :
palm sunday! (oh and my bro's birthday) had a good practice, even though my throat seems to soar a little now ): anyway, aft prac stayed in church to do my work. which apparently had failed cause uncle low dunno vectors ): headed hm arnd 6 and slept till like 1030 aha,

when you said that you dunno, in my mind was a yes.
that you do not care abt me at all.

2010-03-27T00:23:00.003+08:00

i just remembered smth, that i saw an albino the other day. 23march. i think they're cool yet scary. idk ,that was how i felt when i saw her. anyway,tdy's luck was pretty bad. a stupid tiny ball got stuck in my ipod touch(the place to plug in ur earpiece) i went all the way to heeren's epic centre,and all of the sudden it went missing for idk how. ridiculous right? and that cost me to like waste 2hours plus and missed out my nap!): churched aft that and plus dinner.

一时的从动，就照成了我们之间的害羞。为什么你就不能说出来呢。我好想好想知道。你到底在想什么！

2010-03-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

went for confession tdy. oh and P was being a joke-.- come and tell us phototaking tml !!!! i stayed up late for the flag and its tml,wtf. macs aft confession.

搜到了你的卷熏不至为什么，突然好开心。真的好想能戴在你的身边。。。

2010-03-23T23:21:00.002+08:00

trial run for napfa tdy. i failed by 0.03 seconds-.-' .legs were so tired and was having a tummy ache. fark running. anyway tml's class photo taking! hoho, did flag. its damn cuteeee :> humans was damn funn ,i likey ng alot,she's one big comedian i swear haha. oh laoshi praised me tdy,hah. more miracles please.

你还以为我没有脾气吗？我也是人好不好，我的脾气是有限度的。每天为了字码绿豆的事物不停的指着我，你还以为只有你生气吗？一直被你骂个不停。。。终有一天，你看着吧。我。不是那么容易被你这种风姿欺负的！

你写得指的是我吗？海。。。应该不是吧。。好想好想成为那个人，拥有着你的关心。。。。可是，看来是不可能的吧。。情形吧！

2010-03-22T21:05:00.002+08:00

first day of school tdy, damn tired man ): and the time table sucks! D: geog was damn fun though hehhhh. tml got pe,one word,sian. everyone was surprised tht i did almost all the hw. haha. miracles do happen what.

不知为什么，今天一致不停的打喷嚏。我刚刚记得，你们俩是好朋友。而虽然她也是，可是她是一个沉静为你儿出卖过我，差点就露出马脚。虽然早已原谅，可是要我彻底的忘记是不可能的。你知道吗，跟你做朋友，好辛苦。因为，每次都是应为你他们。。。。还所不下去了。。

2010-03-21T21:10:00.002+08:00

churched, blk 3 (chicken rice agn!-.-) , practice, studied out. practice was a killer, most of us were really exhausted. Next sunday is palm sunday ^^ i like palm sunday ,i don know why i like it but i just like it . This wednesday is penitantial service which is confession,feel damn lazy to go . Why can't it be on a friday or saturday instead,arghhhhhh ):

何必为一个不会珍惜我的人感到伤心呢？虽然不再觉得呢么痛了可是，是应为我早已习惯了吗？不可能的事，就别再让自己每天发白日梦了吧。。。清醒吧！‘O ’水准还等着我呢！加油！

2010-03-20T01:28:00.003+08:00

tdy went out with buuuuu. ate like one monster :>
1. swirl peanut butter icecream
2. lemon chicken rice
3. venezia strawberry cheesecake icecream
4. chicken katsu don
5. ice milo with ice cream
6. why nut donut
7. instant noodles
8. vanilla waffle icecream
haha, yes this is how much felicia can eat ,don be shocked. haha,yes im 44kg. hard to maintain okay. feel so sleepy after all the eating. bullshit like crap tdy also hohoho. i really really like triangles.

Myctophobia- Fear of darkness.
Topophobia- Fear of certain places or situations, such as stage fright.
Autophobia- Fear of loneliness

喂，他哪里值得我一直的等待啊。摆脱，一点也不帅，又花心，又没钱，学业也不这么样。究竟我是疯了吗？林敏慧，你无药可救了！难道他伤了你四次还不够吗？快醒吧，要不然会后悔莫及!

2010-03-19T01:07:00.006+08:00

seriously, i h8 seeing you like this.
i h8 it when you behave like this.
i know deep inside you're hurting alot but
can you just don't be like this, its scaring me

~~不要忘记答应过自己的事。今天，我，需要消失。。。~~
是瞎了吗？就像他说的一样，他有哪里好啊！？快点清醒吧，他只把我，当成他集中一个棋子罢了！

你们俩人都一样。需要我，就找我。不需要我就把我远远的丢到一旁。喂，我也是人吧！
我的忍耐度是有限制的。现说好，不要激怒我，现说好

2010-03-18T22:12:00.006+08:00

woke up damn late tdy. headed to central, met olivia. ate at macs, headed to cc to study. painted my nails :> i likeey triangles. i don know why,don ask me why. but i just luv triangles okay. yes its the felicia's theory as usual. tml gng to stay home. hopefully i can finish my ss,revise bio and do my hw. im gng to strt studying agn later after clearing up and my supper. supper makes me feel like a fat pig but im already fat so it doesn't matter :)

btw. i created formspring.
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今天，就让它变成最后一天吧。我再也不会去翻你了。在这世界里，我觉得自己好像好多余哦。
还有你，就别再一直翻我了，够了，忍耐是有限制的。

2010-03-17T22:11:00.003+08:00

Went to school from 8-5 tdy. 8-12 Chinese, 12-2 lunch at serene center and followed by 2-5 for social studies. Lesson for ss was enjoyable,as usual.Supposed to watch movie(dear john) but no time so met kenny,pris aft they watch. Jill and i went arnd looking at irrelevant things as usual while waiting. Left cathay and headed to sunshine plaza for the wanton mee over there. It isn't fantastic but it's quite good,since i've been there for like 3times. Oh we went to a tauhuey shop nearby sunshine plaza too. Though i didn't try it but all of them said its really good.Aft that we cabbed to pris house as she had to go home . I swear her house is damn nice. It resembles the one that i'd built in sims ,one year ago :) Anyway you know what! Her house has a trampoline.It's damn cool lah seriously,it's damn fun.Pris's sister,Amanda,is really good at it. She almost killed jill and i. We couldn't take it and decided to got off the trampoline. Sigh,being defeated by a 9 year old kid ): After we left her hse, we headed to novena. Ate icecream at the balcony where we usually go to slack after church . The icecream shop lady is really pretty, gelatos icecream shop. Go check it out,I'm serious. Killed ants at the balcony. I rock ^^v

iwishediwasn'tsodependentonyou
iwishedyouwouldreallystaybymyside
imjusthopingthatfornow,youwouldnleaveme

2010-03-16T14:23:00.008+08:00

salonpas does work wonders,my hip no longer hurt :D laoshi's timeout bar sucks,caused sarah and i to have stomachache ! argh. no wonder she's so kind... oh,guess why it rained this morning. lyn actually brought gao-zi to school,another miracle. miracles still exists hurrr ^^.Was blog hopping and i came upon this realisation. My english is horrible ttm ! ): no wonder i got 25! ah,shit. i need to read more and polish it up before i get a 5-.-' by then i can dream on of passing english in o's ,seriously. Tomorrow is gng to be the last day of chinese intensive.(though its from 8-4)Here comes my 5days break from horrible nightmares,but sadly,there isn't any break from homeworks,studies and revisions.

i shall strt saving up money, control my sleeping hours , stop eating like a pig and stop saying i'm gng to study when i know i'm such a big fat slacker.

神，你知道吗？我好期待幸福来领的那一天啊。不知为时呢？我好期待，拥有一个很温暖的家庭，拥有一个真心对待我的人，一个了解我的人。幸福是一种主观的感受，幸福是不能衡量的。虽然是很幸运，不愁穿不愁吃，可是却非常的寂寞，非常的孤独。难道是我的要求太高了吗？

2010-03-15T19:53:00.003+08:00

hip bone really damn pain ): but too bad noone cares please.
want go see doctor also cannot-.-'wtv. im not gng to say anything since noone is bothered to do anything abt it the things you promised me,you don even remember i waited so long for it,then now you never even buy...everytime take my things use my things,without permission and i cant even complain? but what abt you?! not only never ask,never even say a thankyou.

nb,what kind of a world am i living in.

嗨，不是已经习惯了吗？振作起来。不许应为任何人跌倒。没有任何事情，任何人是重要的。他也不是跟我说过了吗？听到了吧！就别在做梦了。不可能，就放手吧！要想砖石一样，坚强！记得，世界里，没有人是真心的。没有。

2010-03-14T22:24:00.004+08:00

累是这样写的吧。毫无感觉的我，很象很想放弃所有的一切。自己的父母，亲生的父母，一点也不了解我。每天打电话给我，好听的是关心我，不好听是没事干吧。每次打电话要说的每一句话我都记在心灵了。一，吃了没有，二，在干什么。三，谁在家。四，今天去了那里。五，有没有不谱系或考试。如果我说我真在玩电脑，就一定会被责骂，为什么没有多花时间在课业上。你们连我读什么苦木都不知道，有什么资格来骂我？在骂我的时候，根本都没想过我过得如何。难道，好的成绩就代表着我开心吗？如果是那样的话，那就太可笑了。记得有一次在睡觉时你爸说有的灯管了。我说到我怕黑。作为父母的你们，不只没有开灯，没有来安慰我叫我不要怕，还不听得说我很没用，十五岁了害怕黑。一个人怕黑又错吗？我从小会怕黑，也是应为你们吧。从小就独立的生活，只有干妈在我身边陪伴，你们又想过我会缺乏父爱吗？没有吧。可是型号干吗很疼我，很爱我。让我的童年感到很快乐。可是，干吗州了以后，我再也没有体会到，爱的感觉。甚至连家庭温暖是什么我都忘了。。。每次考试不及格，就被你们骂，被你么看遍。说我很笨。对，我是很笨。那真么样？杀我啊！我也很不想活。可能我的春再是错误吧。死神，你在那里，来吧。

2010-03-14T19:21:00.003+08:00

palm sunday is coming,easter and good friday too!
i like the songs for these occasions alot^^
my voice is really horrible now ): so 'sandy?'
sigh,holiday is here but yet still have to return to school
damn happy when some said the poster not bad ^^
other then stupid jill n maria that kept laughing !!!

imafraid,idonwantittohappenanymore.

对不起，我做不到。。。
我不是故意躲你，本来是很象很想恢复像以前的友情。可是，我发现，我办不到。我很自私，我想拥有的，是多过友情的情感。但，我知道那是我的一厢情愿的想法，根本就是不可能的，所以之能避开。在你的怀抱下，是从瞒着温暖，可是我很怕很怕，会在一次的被你抛弃。我再也不想体会那总想被丢弃的其娃娃的感觉。那时候的我，很难才能走过来的。那时，前几个月不停的昨噩梦，前几个星期不停的发烧，前几天不停的苦。你知道哪有多难受吗？所以，避开你是最适当的了。

2010-03-13T20:16:00.005+08:00

i h8 number 7 ，So many bad things happens on 7 or 17 or 27
according to my diary... haha.
anyway shoppaton was supersupersuper screwed.
lousy organisers who are good for nothing!

寂寞的我，孤单的我，已经过了将近四年了吧。以前的我，生活过的简单，非常得开心，一点烦恼也没有。
可是现在的我，一点也不开心，烦恼多的是。以前的敏慧，很活泼，开朗，平凡，从满着阳光。现在的我，非常的孤独，冷漠，再也不在乎身边的人。四年过得非常得快，人也变了许多。以前的我要求简单，现在的我，根本都没有什么要求了。只是希望过个很平凡很平凡的人身。就算是一个很单调的人身也没关系。自要能再次的感受到真正的快乐，真正的幸福，那我就新满意住了。身边的人常说，我外表上看起来很活泼，很自由，很开心，朋友也有很多。非常的幸福。活泼是外表说看见的。自由诗重估但换取的。开心之是个面具，朋友多，不代表全都是真心了解我的朋友。也许是我看事情太悲观了吧？可是在想想，整整了解我的朋友有几位呢？连自己的父母都不知道我从小怕黑得我，整整的朋友也应该并不多到哪里去吧。父母不之不知道我怕黑，还一点也不自到我喜欢什么，不知道我读什么科目，不知道我怕孤独，不知道我非常的害怕如果醒来后没看到人影，不知道我不开心事就喜欢睡觉，生气时就会痛哭一场，开心事会一直对自己笑，烦恼事会不停的吃。如果有一天他们能知道则说有，那该有多好啊。。。可是，那恐怕是不可能的吧。。。
这也许就能让你自到为什么我每天一早到晚睡得那么多吧。睡觉能让一个人停止思考的空间，忘记调不愉快的事物，忘记调孤独的感觉。现在，真正的想飞到欧洲，能看见生命里人是最久的好朋友。应为之有他才能让我一天到晚笑个不停，就好像着世界没有悲伤是的。以前有三个人也成竟让我真么想，一个应为我错误的决定，现在见面时都觉得很怕是的。一个应为我只记得决定，现在很少来往了。最后一个呢，还是朋友，可是，应为她的背叛，让我再也无法相信郑振友情的船在了。
心里头的活，要是能真正说出来，那该有多好啊。　可是，能在部落可写下来也是挺好的。

takeitasibegyou,dissapearfrommylifeplease.
youcomeandgoasyoulike,imnotatoy

2010-03-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

you never fail to lie.
seriously if you're not gng to take whatever you said for serious
then just shutup and go away can
i don need you in my life, i can do without you.
stop lying to me over and over
i guess i must be the most foolish person
to fall for your stupid lies over and over again
just go away, stop apologising over and over.its not gng to work anymore.

2010-03-11T15:34:00.003+08:00

mini yog tdy, quite fun ^^
reached school arnd 6.
helped cooke cheerleaders to
put on their makeup <3 fun but tired
then played arnd with ning and lyn
ate like alot alot alot tdy D: fats!
bossaball was damn boring for me, ):

ireallyhopethatyouwillnotgo,butidoubtyou'llstay
willyoustayifiaskedyouto

2010-03-10T21:09:00.004+08:00

when they're with each other,
they do nothing but stupid stuffs.
haha,kennyboii and jilly ; jokers.

imafraidi'vefailedit
andnowimjusthopingtimewillfreeze
causeiknowyou'llbegonesoon,verysoon

2010-03-08T05:24:00.003+08:00

i'll help you stand up again
but i'll nt gng to fall with you.

imusthavebeenmadtoactuallysaythat
felicia,becold. you'recoldblooded,rememberthat

2010-03-07T20:38:00.005+08:00

i really want to see toilet king now ):
its the first time since so long that i missed anyone so much
and the first time that i miss him this badly! hoho.
i guess its just the good old times that i really want ,
and with him,every single problem seems to have fly away or smth
cause he's one big joker that can make me laugh 24/7! even everyone
who just met him ystd agrees with me hurr ^^ .
i luv luv luv luv him alot, whoever be his wife will be the most lucky woman!

and you, stop keeping everthing to yourself can?
i really worry alot for you. i thought you would be happy
but now seeing you like this,i regretted dng so.

2010-03-06T23:59:00.003+08:00

long time since i posted pictures.anyway. spend the whole day with pras tdy ^^it's been such a long time since we met and really talk so much. good old times.i really miss how we do everything tgt, how close we were when we were kids :) he's leaving to syndey tml ): i really hope that we'll meet soon. i miss my childhood bestfr .anyway, tdy went to celebrate cherie's birthday.it was really a fun day tdy,laughing at stupid things all along and mostly thanks to pras. haha,since young you never fail to make me laugh like mad! <3 luvyouttm. and you always never fail to help me,even though u always complain but you're really a great friend. someone who lets me bully you,help me and make me laugh. even though at times you can be very idiotic at attacking me! like tdy! in the movie pitch darkness that time,suddenly 'OI WHERE ARE YOU' (hands reach out hit my head-.-) .next time you come hope we can spend more time tgt kay ? (: we can go do stupid things agn!!haha.

you only talk to me when you need me
i know i want to be the one you'll talk to when you need someone
but do you know how it feels when we're drifting so apart and that you only talk to me when you feel like it. it really sucks

2010-03-04T22:13:00.003+08:00

today its a very good day ^^
you know why ?

1. i ate the $1 ice cream
2. pras came over to sg tdy(my 12yrs buddy)
3. i met up with pras & nick
4. i read finish bio plants
5. i managed to do vectors
6. i did well for poa
7. i ate pretzal from aunty anne
8. i got praised by leong!!( miracle okay!)

2010-03-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

shouldnt have trusted in your promises
none of your promises are trustable anyway
i bet you forgot about it anyway since
it was made so long ago. mmm go ahead
im not gng to say what you did ,even
if you do not know why im mad, i don care.
im that selfish this time.

elwj is right,im weird.
i keep too much things to myself
but thats because there's too much irony gng on

i swear upon heaven and earth
i'll never ever make promises that
i m not assured of.

2010-03-02T21:14:00.003+08:00

tml's chem test. im not ready
not at all ):

quotes are what makes you dawn upon facts
they ring the bell in your head.
today a quote rang my head that.

a true friend is not someone whom you know the longest but someone who was there for you when you're down.

and

a friend is someone whom you've can have nothing to talk about, nothing to do
but yet you can sit down with her just to stare at the sky and yet enjoy the times.

sometimes we ourself as humans have to reflect . have we been a resposible friend? we do not always judge others but at times,stop and look into the mirror. friendship honours respect,honesty,resposible. do you have what it takes to be a true friend?

2010-03-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

it sucks when you do not have appetite to eat
and end up getting gastic problems
it sucks when you do not know why you're upset
it sucks when you're having mood swings
life is bad but i don't believe in not having
the ability to make life good.

in my world,my life will be good.

2010-03-01T05:12:00.000+08:00

suddenly i missed the times we had alot
you two were the most comfortable people
that i've every felt with.

the anklet and the globe are now the only
memory. the last piece of memory

2010-02-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tdy = busy + tired ttm day! ):

8: met janice
830: met hakimmah
845: headed to macs.
915-12: bio lesson @ sc.
12-1: travel to douby
1-5: flag day
5-6: home(bathe+change)
7: met brenda
730: hwachong(ahboy'sconcert)
1030: macs w pris,friends & ken
12: home.

being out the entire day isnt cool @ all,cause im ZOMBIE now !!flag day wasnt as bad as i thought my can is 3/4full !! cool hurrr ^^ everyone elses was just 1/10 full?hohoho,yes im very proud of it,:l

anyway,the concert wasnt as good as theprevious one. but still i still do dream about gng to hwachong (yes,impossible)its damn cool,their smallest canteen is x2 of my school canteen-.-' wtf please and kenneth was still rubbing in by saying that it's his only one of his school canteen. and they've so many study area lah! wl wl wl. stupiddddd,life is unfair ttm! anyway macs was damn shiok,20nuggets+Medium fries+Greentea+icecream :D and i swear,pris eats damn alot! and she's so skinny. ah.
how unfair can life be?! nvm im happy enough to be able to eat :D hoho.

2010-02-26T23:40:00.004+08:00

Tml is flag day D:
KINDLY COME DOWN SUPPORT ME PLEASE):
I LAZY TO STAND WHOLE DAY ):
(i'll be @ orchard ,afternoon!)

just now aft stations we went to yassin
and that didn make us full so we went
to macs which i sort of regret. why?

i was buying my happy meal,which suppose to make me happy.but some bitch screwed it up by 'whispering'to her husband saying " i think this girl has a deprived childhood " wth?!

BUY HAPPY MEAL GOT WRONG MEH ?!
stupid aunty.

you act as though you care so much about me
but i know you don't
cause i know that im nothing to you
wait, i was never anything to you,not even once.
everything was just a hallucination

2010-02-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

Regardless of how pretty you're
nothing will beat inner beauty.
beauty is the eye of the beholder's

Happy16thBirthdayLeetLeLyn!
eh,triple'L' now you're 16th.
start behaving like one man ^^
you look like one but deep inside
you machiam small kid,but.
i like :D haha.

2010-02-24T20:39:00.004+08:00

good looking people looks alike afterall

aft school went to macs with valen and zining and as usual we were dreaming
hah, plan : steamboat in school.cool plan hurrr^^ don laugh okay!
tdy we were talking about our embarassing moments. then i suddenly remember mine. haha,

there was once brenda gave me balloon then was teacher's day thus the bus
all very crowded. when we got onto the bus, i was standing right next to the driver
then, the bus jerked. and my balloon fell out of the stick and landed onto the stiring wheel,bouncing around. the driver was shock.Then aft that we went to eat seoul garden while eating halfway,somehow the oil splattered onto the balloon.. and
it burst. Hahah! and followed by two aunties who scream cause got shocked.

2010-02-23T21:20:00.002+08:00

your life isn't that miserable,
you are the one making it miserable.
when there's a will ,there's a way
365 days,its a choice of how we all live it

as for me,
i chose to ignore and live in my world
and i guess im pretty fine after all
indulging in food and sleep
there's nothing else right?
oh yah. shopping :)

2010-02-21T21:23:00.004+08:00

noone is perfect,
noone's life is perfect.

bryan/brenda/maria/dylan
all you cheer up kay ! don be sad
if you need me i'll be here. really.
i may not be the one who can make u be happy
but i can be the one listening :)

daniel
i hope you're really fine
and that you'll just say it out
i know you're not okay ):
i'm worried,really worried. not just me
but the rest of us too .

itfeelsreallygoodtoknowthatshecherishesyou
andthatyou'rehappynow,ithink.

sometimes it doesn even matter if i myself is okay or not, seeing people arnd me happy is just what makes me feel better because at least i know,they're not like me. after all i'm satisfied already . no. i mean , used to it. thus ,it no longer matters.

2010-02-20T02:52:00.005+08:00

does anyone knows felicia inside out
answer : No.

i don hate you, im just so used to all these.
i don care anymore and i really mean it

eye still not okay
sometimes, i really wish i'll go blind
maybe then things i know will be lesser
things i think of will be lesser cause
only then then i wouldn know who's lying
and who isnt lying to me. cause only then
i'll be in a world of my own. a happy world

2010-02-19T17:16:00.003+08:00

chapel session was scary. really scary. oh, joined the shoppaton thing (13March). grp name is 3cube-.-' just came up with smth really random as it was really last minute. joined it with lyn and ning. hope the things will be nicenicenice^^

stupid eye infection is killing me
damn farking pain _l_ !!!!!
daddygod,please heal my eye ):

prettygirlsareeverywhere,
butfelicia,itsnotyou!

i still do think about it,but i know
it's a hallucination
i don know you
i 've never knew you
you're just my imaginary friend i dreamt of

2010-02-17T22:34:00.004+08:00

seriously, those words coming from
your mouth were too much.
he'll never say that,i know

i need neither your pity nor your care
i need neither your love nor your attention
i can live on my own
i do not own anyone a living

i'm not gng to care anymore,
not just you but everyone.

2010-02-16T22:42:00.005+08:00

back from cny trip.
only two picture,cause ugly for the rest,
yes im that ugly ):
for those of u who do not know how my bro looks like
that is my bro(younger)
real blood brother ^^

for the past few days i dreamt of you it felt so real that i didn want to wake up,so real that i wanted to sleep forever. there's a saying that 'the person you dream of is the one thinking about you' i really hope its true right now ): i miss your laughter and how u can really make me laugh as though there is no existance of unhappiness in this world.but i know that,we'll never ever talk agn.

2010-02-13T10:33:00.001+08:00

Bye world :)

2010-02-12T16:44:00.002+08:00

went to island with zn.
ate a tub of icecream ^^,
pingpong milo flavour.
then went to find marz to
pei her go borders, bought
food, and headed home

2010-02-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

so my assumption was right.
that you really no longer care.

damn exhausted now.
after making 70plus choco cornflakes
for tml : >

had a arguement jst now,
things just gets really unreasonable in
times like this, wtv it is,i don care
im not gng be affected by it.
do you think you're impt to me @ all? no.
so just fark off, you want do what i also
don care, but please. next time want to
have a arguement, do not come and ask me
for help aft that. its just ridiculous.
i've a life, im not a prisoner.

craving for daim cake, anyone ? ):

2010-02-10T19:56:00.006+08:00

(i used to be so cute & FAT)

shopping really makes you feel better.
bought 1dress,1shirt and 1bag ^^
If only i can shop everyday
then maybe i wouldn be such a pessimist
oh,and was surprise to see steph
valentine's coming (doncare)
cny 's coming (newclothes!+food<3)

2010-02-09T16:41:00.001+08:00

h8 life.
h8 myself.
bye.

2010-02-07T21:42:00.001+08:00

im sorry that im still like this
sorry that i 've cause you all worry
but one thing ,im fine.
im really fine.

yes im nt happy
but im used to it.
so therefore,im fine
you don have to be happy to be okay.

2010-02-06T11:08:00.004+08:00

h8 temptations.
h8 it when i know i wnt to do smth
but yet i cannot do it cause its
not the right thing that i should do.
i must not do it agn,):
i need some resistance cells.
talking abt cells,i screwed my bio test):
this is what lack of concentration brings me to
its not gng anywhere.
i've to move a step, a step further.

ibtrnotdoitagn,
yesitmayhelpbutitsnotgood
notgoodforyoufelicia.
donbesuchanidiot.

i can sense it.
that you do not care anymore.
you're happy now.
you've someone now.

2010-02-05T23:24:00.001+08:00

tdy was a bad day.
horrible day
life sucks ,h8 life.

2010-02-04T22:15:00.002+08:00

3chapter of bio tml,have yet to finish any
And had barely started.
I can't concentrate at all
Days zoom by but yet I'm still stuck ok the same issue
I'm useless but what can I do .

Felicia,you useless fool
You will never deserve anything
Never ever.

2010-02-03T19:10:00.003+08:00

school was damn slack tdy :)
ant never come ^^ And koh too.
had to stayback with chinese.
got into trouble,haha.
komodo was damn mad and stared
at me with her 'scary' eyes but
im used to it hurrr. haha! after that
we went to eat @ serene .
large fries,20piece nugget,large sprite
then went to island,nutellllllla.

ireallywanttotalktoyourightnow
butiknowi'venorightstoanditsuseless

justnowiwaswalkinghome
thereweremanymanyvehicleszoomingby
thenasuddenthoughtcameintomymind
iponderedwalked,stopandthinkagain
imonlyafraidofthepain,notdeath

2010-02-02T21:07:00.003+08:00

was really happy that i could talk to you tdy ^^.
was in such a terrible mood swing when i came hm
but you're just one of those who would make me
laugh easily.

life is a one time process,
you live to no regret.
you move on when you make mistakes
you do not stay put and ponder on
cause it will nvr bring you anywhere
not at all.

ohh,the weirddddd man (some ppl know who)
came to talk to me about life tdy
hahaha,he's one cup of weird man but
i think he's damn hilarious though he's
not trying to be, not at all

iflovingmeissodifficult,
maybeforgettingmewillbethebestidea
ormaybepretendingthati'veneverexist

2010-02-01T17:01:00.004+08:00

fell ill tdy, nvr go school.
really feel very horrible ):
i've to stop thinking.
its the only way i'll feel better
cause medicine wouldn help,

tdyshallbethelastdayidoit
imnotgngtobelikethisanymore,
icantgoonlikethisforever
itwillonlybecomedeeper,sopleasestopfelicia

2010-01-31T23:11:00.003+08:00

everyday people think about their lifes
but how many of them can actually change it
every year i lose people,and every year the number is increasing

zenna,jeri,godma (forever..),prase,lynette(contactmewhenyou'reout)
d,v,wy,z,j,g,r,h,n,d,r and still counting on.

sorry that i don have the courage to write any of your full name
i miss every single one of you here.and i really want to thank kor for always being
there for me, no matter what when i need you,you're always there.
other then j and n ,you're the person who understands me most. even though you're not like them, can feel what im feeling even without asking,but you bother to care.and everytime no matter what ,you wont leave me alone. i remember i caused you to quarrel with j but yet instead of blaming me you asked if im okay. you may not be my real brother/godbrother but to me you're a big korkor. i know i don deserve to have such treatment from anyone but yet you care abt me so much even when i do you wrong. as to the few of you who treats me good,i appreciate. but no matter what,noone will replace kor.im sorry that i don tell anyone anything,keeping everything to myself everytime. im sorry that i don trust anyone, sorry that i don want to be very close to anyone. but i guess all of you knows why,i really don want to fall over and over and this is the only way i can stop it.im sure all of you knows how much i've fall before and how terrible i get when i lose anyone at all esp someone important. im sorry that i refuse to accept anyone into my life. cause somehow i know,no matter how good you guys are, each and every of you have did things behind me before. i know that, i know everything,but i just don say it out. some of you may think that i do not care about you guys anymore,i know . i still care but i just donwant to show. i don want to be there for anyone cause i will only strt to treasure that person more and end up losing that person,it always happens, and im tired,really tired. im sorry that im such a loser.

its been such a long time since i rant so much,
don have to think about which part you play in my life
cause it doesnt matter. felicia,what is she? a trash from the dump.

let it be the last time i rant.
i know myself well enough, and have said enough
nothing will happen anyway.
go, read your books.

2010-01-31T22:35:00.003+08:00

got out the hse late,
missed out prac tdy @ church.
but still served for mass --'
then after that went for lunch
and for prac, prac was short tdy ^^
after prac studied like a little.
headed to orchard central. bought
some stuffs,then went to 313!<3.
ate ramen@ some jap restaurant ,nice.
headed to novena,went to cotton on.
saw nothing nice, so came home to nap

imissedyoualottodaysuddenly
butyoudonevenbothertotalktomeanymore
andishalltrytoforgeti'veknownyou
maybei'llfeelbetterlikethis
causerightnow,ifeelasthoughimatrashtoyou
notjustyoubuttohimtoo,bothofyou,goneforever.

2010-01-31T01:20:00.003+08:00

Ystd (30thJan)

morning went with eugene to sentosa
then we we went back to harbourfront
after his interview @ rasa sentosa!(cool^^)
ate at the jap restaurant me & dan went the other day
then from there we went for lacoste sale
wasted trip,nothing at all please.
then we went to somersat @ 313.
shopped arnd, i swear forever 21 is damn hot.
met maria, went to OrchardCentral walked arnd
there was a flea there :) bought ring/earrings
then went to fungames,bought headphones(finally!)
bought the onto golden limited edition one^^
went to get eugene's car , headed to church
to meet cherie and jillywilly :)
then we went for dinner @ macs. kor treat me ^^
after that, cherie,maria,jill and i headed to
HWA CHONG INSTITUITION.
i swear their school is damn big.
machiam universal studio like that lor!
and damn rich rich rich,so many statues,lol.
but one thing i really like about their school is
they're really a family,really bonded. rare...
the orchestra + band concert was really awesome
plus its only $8 (really cheap compared to mysch one)
plus it even have overseas one,and professionals!
nowonder its so hard to get into that school,hah.
after the concert,went to macs for supper :) & hm.

i really don want to lose you
but looks like you do not need me at all

2010-01-30T00:35:00.004+08:00

Have you ever tried crying yourself to sleep every night
Have you ever tried praying halfway and tears roll down without a reason
Have you ever wake up at night cause you were crying in your dreams
Have you ever realised that noone in this world knows you deep down
Have you ever realised that noone is there for you
Have you ever felt how it feels when your parents do not know you're scared of the dark since you're a baby, not knowing what you like and dislike.
Have you ever tried being alone in the house everyday
Have you ever tried getting blamed and had to apologise
Have you ever felt the feeling of someone turning it's back against you
Have you ever tried losing someone really important forever
Have you ever felt the feeling of losing trust from important people to you
Have you ever regret not saying sorry to someone who has left the world
Have you ever been bitched and get accused of bitching
Have you ever laugh and cry at the same time
Have you ever realise that you're not important to anyone
Have you ever realise you cannot do anything at all
Have you ever been treated like a trash
Have you ever been treated nice only when they need you
Have you ever been lied to before right infront into your face
Have you ever think about how you treat the people around you

Felicia has been through so much,
and she'll go through even more
life is difficult
but yet, i must still walk on this journey
sometimes i really want to die,
so that i could stop all these
but in the end i think again,
' do i really have that courage?'
the answer is , ' no'

so please, if im not important to you
tell me im not,
if im important to you, let it be
just don't leave me,that is all i ask for

in this world, all humans have two side
one is for the world to see,the other is for themselves
everyone should stop and ponder ,
'which is the real you?'

you might not even know.
for i myself,is not very sure either.

2010-01-29T20:41:00.004+08:00

i really hate myself for being useless,i know what is gng arnd me yet i cant do anything , not at all.
i know who needs me but yet i chose not to be there for them cause i hate it when
i start to cherish someone more and never get to be cherished in the end.
i hate it when i cant let go of people and cling on to them,it feels as though
im a pest or smth.
i detest myself for able to feel how people is feeling,like who is upset and not.
i hate myself for being able to see someone through so well, i really really hate myself.
i hate myself for being so complicated yet pretend to be strong on the outside .
i hate it when i pretend to be okay and i know that im not,
i hate it when i know that im the weakest but yet i try to act strong.
i hate it when im weak and cant do anything about it

life is contridicting
but life still goes on.
felicia, you're just you.
lastly, i hate myself for hating myself so much

2010-01-28T23:54:00.007+08:00

school study sleep school.
sec 1 ,2 ,3 and now 4.
the first o lvl's paper is
barely 4months away,and
im not prepared/preparing :l

tml's geog test (studied abit ,read only)
if only can get out of 4/6 for geog.
yes i'm in 4/6 for geog,nerd in disguise :)
(trust me,you'll feel how i feel when you're in there
cause you totally don understand what they're talking
its too chim. half the time im lost,)

just completed my eng hw (yes,finally hah)
left my poa in school by accident- -'
and have not finished my bio hw.

i really miss you alot
but i guess its useless cause afterall
i'm noone.

2010-01-27T17:04:00.003+08:00

those were the times...
when will it be the next one!
hope church carnival is soon man

its time to wake up,
stop dreaming.
get ready with your armours felicia.
you can do it.

2010-01-26T23:03:00.006+08:00

Looks like ,afterall im nothing
nothing at all.
wait,i've always been nothing what.
you seems fine,and you'll be fine

im gng to pull myself up,
and just gng ignore everyone agn
sorry this is life,life is cruel
its the only armour i've

i only trust two people that will
never leave me no matter what im or
what i'll ever become
1. god
2. unclelowwwwww(kay lah,korkor- -')

2010-01-26T14:39:00.004+08:00

you refuse to tell me anything,
feels really useless but yet there's
nothing that i can do about it.

Kor/Fats/Boo/Marz/Aminah :
thanks for trying to make me happy.

2010-01-25T20:59:00.005+08:00

i really don't understand what you're thinking.
whatever it is ,i'll respect your decision.
i really hope that you'll tell me.
right now,i feel really useless.

thanks for those who were there for me tdy
im sorry for making all of you worried.
i tend to always look strong,but ...

2010-01-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

have many many homework i've yet to done
and tests that i've to study first
time to start felicia! argh.

maybe i should stop bothering so much

2010-01-23T09:36:00.003+08:00

somehow,i feel very unimportant.
yah. who the hells needs felicia?
noone.

apologies ,im sick of hearing them

2010-01-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

im glad to see that you're so happy now.
maybe you do not need me at all,i guess
but as long as everyone is happy,thats enough
who the hell cares about felicia.

2010-01-21T18:46:00.005+08:00

i dislike rude people
i dont believe in promises
_l_ fark liers

and lastly,i hate myself.

2010-01-20T17:32:00.007+08:00

dunno why but i likey this alot ^^ haha,
and this stupid girl is flying off tdy ):
didnt go school today,wasnt really feeling well
the cough is really damn irritating >:(
i shall study @ 730 (latest8!)

2010-01-17T22:45:00.001+08:00

Emm chalet(retreat) was a blast,
but now felicia is super lack of sleep
and school is tml,damn! ):

2010-01-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

Felicia officially have 7new scars
argh, i hate scars.
great,now im becoming even uglier ):

Lol,
just now mum called me.
Mum : so how's your injury
me : mm,okay already
Mum : got scars?
me : yeah ,sadly
Mum : oh,where
Me : both hand,both leg,hip,total 7
Mum : (Shouts: HUH WHAT?!)

LOL,wth.

2010-01-12T22:58:00.003+08:00

Lessons were fine,
Practically travelled arnd the school today
Only stayed in class for chinese? wth.
Pile of hw waiting for me to clear,
this is really horrible,
why must we have O lvls? it isnt cool at all.
But nvm , i Must Conquer it!

its good to see you guys back tgt ,
happy ending,i likey ^^

2010-01-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

Today is the day hell began
Timetable is like , crap.

2010-01-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

started school tdy.
it was practically plain boring
was talking half the time or
listening to talks but still,
its better then studying :)

lelyn is the houserap ,cool
haha!

2010-01-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

My injury isnt really getting better
okay maybe everything is except for my leg ):
super duper duper pain till i screamed and cried
i really very scared anything bad will happen
i want to heal fast fast!
can anyone please pray for me ): tyvm.

2010-01-01T02:02:00.003+08:00

It's a new year
i hope everyone will be happy ^^
had fun counting down with the jokers
played truth or truth, heh.

i really wished you'll talk to me again
just like how we used to.
it really sucks to see how you're now.
i really hope you'll be happy

2009-12-30T13:27:00.001+08:00

your words means nothing.
from tdy im going to try to ignore
not just you but everything ^^

daniel's bbq party later,
yay ^^.